Grace, 19, Narnia.

Castle, Melbourne Storm. Smoed.

Musical theatre is my life.

Stage Manager in training

17th October 2014

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so it has been just over a week since my life changed forever, but not in a good way, and i finally think i am up to posting about it…

so last wednesday night, my twin brother passed away. it was sudden and shocking. we didn’t find out till thursday night. it really did come out of no where, and it has left a shit tone of people in shock and sadness.

over the last week, i have met some of his incredible friends and works mates and have seen more family members pass through the house then had done in the last 5 years. 

our family and friends have helped us so much during this time and i am so incredibly grateful for each and every single one of them. i am also so grateful for my brothers friends, work colleges and everyone from our community. i feel we may not have gotten through it without you all.

we got so many flowers from people we ran out of vases and places to put them. everybody, from my dad’s workmates, to the cleaning company at the building my dad works, to my mums work to half our family and friends have given us flowers. hell even the mayor of our area sent flowers to us,  that is how big of an impact my brother had on this community. 

my mums best friends have been around everyday checking in on us and making sure we are alright; almost everyone has brought over food of some kind for us (we ran out of room!) and have offered to do anything we need to make this time a bit easier for us.

the funeral is not until next week, and because my brother was so loved we had to find a place that would hold all the people, and that was not easy. 

today we went to his work for the first time, and they were all wearing rainbow colours in his honour; everyone in his division wants to attend the funeral, i actually think they may have to close down part of the office because of it. 

before my brother worked where he is now (the national office) he worked in the local store near us, and again, they may have to shut the store down because of all the people that have said they want to come. 

the location of the funeral is actually at our old primary school, and a lot of teachers we had almost 10 years ago, are planing on attending.

my best friends, they really are the best, have been there for me every step of the way, i went shopping with my best friend yesterday to get a dress for the funeral and what could have been a horribly sad occasion was filled with laugher, love, and her threatening not to drive me home until i found a dress. (i found one, thank god) 

my incredible friends from uni, they have been by my side from the moment it happened, one friend was one of the only people i wanted to talk to when i found out, she is incredible and i am so lucky to have you in my life, i am so lucky to have all of you in my life. 

i think i am just rambling at this point, but i do want to say a quick thanks to the people on here who sent me messages when they saw something was wrong, i am sorry i didn’t reply, i couldn’t type what had happened at that point in time, but i do appreciate the love and support. 

i don’t know when i will return to my normal postings on here, i can’t justify it to myself yet that i can just keep going on here like nothing has happened, not yet at least. 

this isn’t goodbye, this is see you later; weeks like these are what make you realise that some times you need to close the laptop lid, and just go out and sit with your parents for a while, or have a conversation with your sister about her day or ask that friend “are you okay?” because when it comes down to it, you never know what is going to happen tomorrow.

it’s time for me to sign off for the next little while Tumblr; you’re all amazing people and i hope you remember that every single day.

Love Grace xoxo

12th October 2014

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Spent about an hour on Skype with family in NY this morning, then more of the aunts and uncles came over for a while and my best friend and her mum shortly after that.

We have so much food in the house we are running out of space, but are so thankful for it all because it means we don’t have to think about cooking anything. Lord knows none of us are up to that yet.

Even the neighbours puppy came over to give us kisses this morning and wrap her leash around my sisters legs repeatedly, that made mum laugh for a minute, it was good to see her smile a bit.

12th October 2014

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Expressive Pencil Drawings By Dino Tomic

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12th October 2014

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d4y-dr3ams:

jehanjetaime:

pelicanmutt:

i cant believe im hesitating making this post but

if someone has a comfort object, like a blanket or a stuffed animal or anythign that they have to sleep with in order to make them feel secure or positive, don’t fucking make fun of them. i don’t care where it is or why you feel that it’s funny or childish, but don’t make fun of them. 

And don’t you fucking take it away from them.

THIS

11th October 2014

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so today, my grandparents, as well as some of my aunts, uncles and cousins came over for a while and the 4 hours they spent just made it that little bit easier to deal with. 

Tagged: spent almost 30 minutes just hugging my baby cousin and making her smile cause it made my momma smile a bit

10th October 2014

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I keep thinking that the last 24 hours have just been a horrible dream, but no It’s my worst nightmare and I’m wide awake.

10th October 2014

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If I just stay in bed and ignore the world does it mean it didn’t happen?

9th October 2014

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My little secret.

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9th October 2014

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werewolfetude:

PSA:

Some people have sex and that’s okay

Some people don’t have sex and that’s also okay

but what’s NOT okay is putting fucking ketchup in your god damn mac and cheese

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9th October 2014

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rabioheab:

internet jokes come and go but bad fanfiction is eternal 

you may even say bad fanfiction is

immortal

no

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9th October 2014

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Benedict’s response on playing so many smart people. [x]

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9th October 2014

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9th October 2014

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suspended-inasunbeam:

castleramblings:

So cute (we still don’t have any nickname Castle uses for her…)

I have a headcanon that he calls her “honey”… I’ve seen it in fics and it’s the only pet name I can see him saying that doesn’t make me cringe.

I could see that. I have a theory that he’s going to call her “Mrs. Castle” on occasion, especially if she retains her own last name after marriage. But they do have to get married first…

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9th October 2014

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i think we’re out of ink

have you tried turning it on and off again

its probably just out of paper

perks-of-being-chinese:

bitchiel:

justaddtommy:

i think we’re out of ink

have you tried turning it on and off again

its probably just out of paper

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9th October 2014

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Anonymous said: does sex hurt more if you've never masturbated before?

uoa:

life hurts more if you’ve never masturbated 

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